Feeling Bitter...

11.35pm... at normal days, I'd be chatting happily in the phone with my beloved, but for some unavoidable circumstances, it's since been 4 days I've not really talked to her.

I don't know what kind of feeling is piling up my chest, but it definitely doesn't feel good. I've felt down and unhappy recently. Could it be that I'd relied too much emotionally on one person or could it be mere disappointment and frustration for all the unfortunate events lately? I don't know.

Sigh... I just hope all these will be over soon and normal routine shall presume. Or else, I'd be terribly down and I won't know what I'd do out of frustration and disappointment.

God, please bless me and everyone around.

A New Dawn...

26th of August, 2008. A day to be remembered by all Malaysians. The winning of Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim in Permatang Pauh's by-election with a staggering vast majority over his BN opponent is a clear message sent to the idiots occupying seats in Putrajaya. We really do hope that the march to Putrajaya by the Pakatan Rakyat will pick up pace and slam through doors to hang and burn all those BN bastards for all the sins they had brought to our beloved Malaysia.

Let the march begin. Burn them to their bones, continue to burn when they are in hell for all the sufferings the people had gone through all these years.

May the quest prevails. God bless.

Sleepless in Malaysia...

It's yet another 2.05am, and yes, it's yet another sleepless night. I really don't understand what's wrong with me.

Anyone willing to konk me out and let me sleep?

*sigh*

This is getting more and more frustrating...

小小心情故事

凌晨1点45分 外面下着绵绵细雨 我却睡不着...

心里想着我心爱的人 才发觉思念真的会让人觉得孤独...
想念着我们在一起的感觉 温暖也温馨...
其实再想想...
原来思念着自己心爱的人不是苦的 而是充满幸福的...
因为心中装满了你的倩影...

Babe 爱着你是我一生中的幸福...
让我们一起一步一脚印 手牵手享受着我们爱情的道路...

我们永远都要在一起... 我会永远都爱着你...

Down and out...

I'm currently down with flu but somehow found the strength to blog, mainly because I'm feeling unhappy, very unhappy indeed. Maybe I've been away from home for too long, things have changed. The way I am treated at home ever since I came back is so different than the way I felt before I left. It was all warm and happy but all these are gone. I feel no care and no warmth even when I'm sick. Things are just so different nowadays. Maybe I should just get used to it.

I'm just so pissed off right now and I don't think it will make me feel any better. Adding misery to my already bad day, I had to take more than 4 attempts just to log into blogspot so that I can type out my unhappiness. Not like anyone will care though, but, I guess I will feel much, much, much better after this. I wanted to talk to my love, but I somehow felt discouraged and don't really feel like talking, besides, I guess she's just too busy to hear me rant. So, whatever.

I really wish to earn as much as possible now. To have some money to spend and go for vacation just to getaway from such horrendous place. I'm sick and tired of these. Not that I've never tried, I did, but things don't even seem to work out. I'm losing my patience fast, I'm losing my temper fast too. I'm getting more and more unsettled and unmotivated as days past by.

I really wish to talk to my babe, but unfortunately, I don't have the chance. Nevermind, I'll get used to such loneliness soon. I shall learn to adapt and digest all these by myself. Maybe I'm just destined to suffer such a way.

Anyhow, whatever.

原來很簡單

My buddy forwarded this meaningful email to me and thus, I'm sharing it here. :)

有一個人去應徵工作，隨手將走廊上的紙屑撿起來，放進了垃圾桶，被路過的口試官看到了，因此他得到了這份工作。
原來獲得賞識很簡單，養成好習慣就可以了。

有個小弟在腳踏車店當學徒，有人送來一部故障的腳踏車，小弟除了將車修好，還把車子整理的漂亮如新，其他學徒笑他多此一舉， 後來雇主將腳踏車領回去的第二天，小弟被挖角到那位雇主的公司上班。
原來出人頭地很簡單，吃點虧就可以了。

有個小孩對母親說：「媽媽你今天好漂亮。」母親回答：「為什麼。」小孩說「因為媽媽今天都沒有生氣。」
原來要擁有漂亮很簡單，只要不生氣就可以了。

有個牧場主人，叫他孩子每天在牧場上辛勤的工作，朋友對他說：「你不需要讓孩子如此辛苦，農作物一樣會長得很好的。」牧場主 人回答說：「我不是在培養農作物，我是在培養我的孩子。」
原來培養孩子很簡單，讓他吃點苦頭就可以了。

有一個網球教練對學生說：「如果一個網球掉進草堆裏，應該如何找？」 有人答：「從草堆中心線開始找。」有人答：「從草堆的最凹處開始找。」有人答：「從草最長的地方開始找。」教練宣布正確答 案：「按部就班的從草地的一頭，搜尋到草地的另一。」
原來尋找成功的方法很簡單，從一數到十不要跳 過就可以了。

有一家商店經常燈火通明，有人問：「你們店裡到底是用什麼牌子的燈管？那麼耐用。」店家回答說：「我們的燈管也常常壞，祇是 我們壞了就換而已。」
原來保持明亮的方法很簡單，只要常常更換就可以了

住在田邊的青蛙對住在路邊的青蛙說：「你這裡太危險，搬來跟我住吧！」路邊的青蛙說：「我已經習慣了，懶得搬了。」幾天後， 田邊的青蛙去探望路邊的青蛙，卻發現他已被車子壓死，暴屍在馬路上。
原來掌握命運的方法很簡單，遠離懶惰就可以了。

有一隻小雞破殼而出的時候，剛好有隻烏龜經過，從此以後小雞就背著蛋殼過一生。
原來脫離沉重的負荷很簡單，放棄固執成見就可以了。

有幾個小孩很想當天使，上帝給他們一人一個燭臺，叫他們要保持光亮，結果一天兩天過去了，上帝都沒來，所有小孩已不再擦拭那 燭臺，有一天上帝突然造訪，每個人的燭臺都蒙上厚厚的灰塵，只有一個小孩大家都叫他笨小孩，因為上帝沒來，他也每天都擦拭，結果這個笨小孩成了天使。
原來當天使很簡單，只要實實在在去做就可以了。

有隻小豬，向神請求做祂的門徒，神欣然答應，剛好有一頭小牛由泥沼裡爬出來，渾身都是泥濘，神對小豬說：「去幫他洗洗身子 吧！」小豬訝異的答道：「我是神的門徒，怎麼能去侍候那髒兮兮的小牛呢！」神說：「你不去侍候別人，別人怎會知道，你是我的門徒呢！」
原來要變成神很簡單，只要真心付出就可以了。

有一支掏金隊伍在沙漠中行走，大家都步伐沉重，痛苦不堪，只有一人快樂的走著，別人問：「你為何如此愜意？」他笑著：「因為 我帶的東西最少。」
原來快樂很簡單，擁有少一點就可以了

Procrastinating...

I'm here blogging while I am supposed to be completing the report on my first scrapped metal deal. Procrastination is really the nature of all librans. *sigh*. I need a new breathe in life, something that will spark my motivation.

The deal wasn't a massive; eye-popping; jaw-dropping kind of deal, but it anyhow, was my first deal. Proud? No. More like a satisfying student after attending a constructive class. The first-hand experience from the beginning till the end has really lifted my confidence. I came to learn on how to deal with different types of people. I realized now how to fend off bullies and cheaters and keep my fist firm on the cash that I grasp on. All in all, it was a really good experience for me.

I guess people just need to learn from experience. The more you do, the quicker you'll learn. Looking back at how this deal was initiated and finally done, it gave me a kind of thrill that I've never felt before. I also came to realize that we need networks in business. The larger our network is, the easier things can be completed. I'm looking forward to building my own business network. I need to run around more rather than just sitting in the office or at home. I need to know more people. I need to have a broader knowledge in a little bit of every thing. I need to socialize and I need to keep fit and look good! LOL!!

Ok, guess it's best for me to start writing my report again. My big boss will be back from Kelantan this evening, better get my report done before I get screwed. Hehe...

Ciao~!!

想你是临睡的习惯

动力火车 - 想你是临睡的习惯

寂寞是临睡的习惯
习惯是一个人 守着冰冷的床和烟灰缸
没有你的孤单

想你在这样的夜晚
打开窗吹着冷风 故意把灯关上
试着想像你笑的模样

不懂我的爱 在你生命中占据多少份量
让你哭泣却是我心深处最痛的伤
最残酷的惩罚

*chorus*
I will never try to break your heart
我不愿这样 让爱情不由自主
陷入一场 两败俱伤的战

I will never try to break your heart
我真的不想 再面对没有你的寂寞夜晚
烟雾迷茫的孤单

Out of my love...

This is specially dedicated to my darling... hope you'll like it...

Like the shadows of yesteryears...
Of us so naived and full of prayers...
Vaguely, time flies with cheers and tears...
It was all but our yesteryears...
Nevertheless, love conquers our fears...
Giving us the strength to move towards the clear...
For you are my love, my dear...
All the glooms and sorrows seem to just disappear...
Nurturing this love with our hearts so pure...
Carefully, we will walk this path together...
You and I are really meant for each other...
Today, tomorrow, and for a long, long future...
As I will love you forever, my dear...
Now just let our love works with wonders...

p/s: read from 1st alphabet downwards... cheers... :)